Well people, life has returned to its normal flow. My sister came to visit me, with her little one Molly. My very tiny niece who is perfectly adorable. She is Molly. It was all a perfectly wonderful thing. there was some stress because of things going on, and mom and her weren't always on the greatest of terms but I was more than happy to see her and more so to get to do things with her that mean something to me. To share my life with her despite the congestion of it all. They are home now, and I already miss them. However, its time that my life went back on track from all the chaos that had been spinning around me and turned it into something good.
I know I talk like this sometimes, but its just me I guess.
There's been some trouble on the the Mik front. After spending the week together it seemed to be an issue that popped up at least three times after we had laid down for the night. His elbow is hurting in the tendon, and his bicep is tensed unconsciously. I'm not sure if its from the medications he started, or the ones that he stopped. But I suppose that its time research was done and a proper conversation was had with one of his doctors or all of them. I was talking to him about starting PT but I'm not certain on how to take the next step. Stupid complications. I wish my head worked on a better level than others, I'm not certain all the time that I function properly with all the given information, but its alright. Good news though on the Mikki front. It seems mom and him are getting along so much better than they use to, and she even was complimenting him the other night because of what a good man he is. I'm so glad that she sees that, and understands why I love him so much. I can't wait until we are one family.
And after the chaos of life and the ridiculousness that has been here for the last few months, I have finally cleared my head. I start work again on Wednesday. Watching the kids 5 days a week from 7:15 to 5, and thankfully it should last a while. I'm still looking for other jobs, ones that might pay a little better , but this will get my groceries paid and bills paid. The things that matter. And now that all this has returned to normal I have finally sat back and thought to myself, what the HELL was I doing with myself these last few weeks? I'm a woman! I should get myself back into the real world where I belong.
SO! I'm going back to school. I applied for a renewed FAFSA pin tonight and as of Wednesday I will be able to fill out the financial aid papers because of it. If I get it or not, I'm still going back. One class at a time or not. I'm not going for a degree, I'm just not ready for that step. But I'm going back for a certificate. PC technician. I'm good at it, I enjoy it, so why not have the training to get a job doing it? If it works out I'll continue doing it, but I'm just ready to rejoin those who work for a living.
With work and school underway I'm thinking that everything should fall together with my lifestyle as well. I have been working on getting back on track with my health, and perhaps this is the way to do it. Mental health before physical health. Horse before the cart.
I pick up Mikki Tuesday and I can't wait to see him again. Life spins differently when he is here. I'm ready for you life, WE are ready for you.
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